rededicating my life

Lord, I'm sorry for a lot of things. I am sorry for staying away from you for so long and I am sorry that I sin and fall short of the expectations you set for me. One thing I am not sorry about, though, is that I accept your love and grace. I am so thankful that you accept me in my broken existence. Lord I'm so happy that you don't give up on me even when I give up on you. You keep pulling me in and whispering in my ear that it will be OK. You have carried me through the hardest times in my life and caught me when I've fallen. You took the bullet so that I don't have to feel the pain of my enemy, and for all this I can only say thank you. I need to rededicate my life to you, because lately I have been doing things that I am ashamed about. I have lusted, lied, cheated, been disrespectful, I have used your name in vain, and it's about time I wake up and realize that this is not my purpose. I have been depressed so much lately, because I struggle with sin. Instead of being depressed I should give thanks for the forgiveness you give and spread that forgiveness as if everyday were my last day. Lord I know where I am headed when I die, but sadly I don't know where my friends have gone or are going. Lets do something about that, NOW!