Friday, January 30, 2009

Long Time No See

Well lord today is Friday and I feel kinda weird. I feel bad for not talking to you here for a while, but I don't think that's why I feel so weird. I just thought of something lord. Why do I have low self-esteem. Right now I am depressed for no good reason. It will pass I am sure, but I guess I have been feeling bad for a while about something. I don't take you seriously enough. It hit me this morning when I was praying at the FCA meeting. I said this "lord let more people my age take you seriously, because Christianity is a serious thing." I thought then about this. How much time do I spend in a day giving back to you? Unfortunately not enough. I feel bad, because I have been talking at FCA about how you should give more time and that people should do everything to glorify you and I myself am slacking off on that. A lot of people don't like religion because a lot of religious people are hypocrites. I feel like I fall into that category more than I should allow myself to. I struggle with sin and I keep away from you more than I should. Lord help me to correct those things in my life, because until I do that I will not grow and I will not be able to help those around me grow.
Lord I am sorry for being a lazy christian. Help me pick up the slack and to give more to you EVERY SINGLE DAY. For my family, my friends, the people that I evangelize to, for myself, but most importantly for you.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Achieving Greatness Through God's Plan

Today is Martin Luther King day, and I was thinking about something lord. It amazes me at the influence he has on millions of people even after his death. I was thinking about how great of a man he is and how it seems impossible to make that much out of my own life, but even though he may be so great I thought of someone even more influential, Jesus. Dr. King may be one of the greatest men of the 20th century, but Jesus on the other hand Jesus was the greatest man ever. It astounds me that so many people look up to Dr. K when there is something more we might want to look at reagarding his life. Mr. King did great things with his life, but people forget that he was a minister. I think if more people studied how your son lived, like Dr. King, achieving greatness wouldn't seem so hard to do. I believe that Marting Luther King Jr. made his mark by realizing that he had a special purpose in life set aside for him. He knew this and actively pursued getting closer to you and fulfilling his purpose with all of his ability. I hope that I can get closer to you lord so that I can get to know your plan for me lord, because I know you have something great for me. So please, speak lord, because I am your servant, and I am learning.

My Dad Completely Trumps Your Dad...... Because He is God

Today is day two of my journal on the john and it feels good to know that i am thinking of you more god. This morning Pastor Steve had a great sermon on parenting, and I couldn't help but think about how much I miss out on, since my dad isn't around. I do often think about how much better life would be if my dad spent time with me or if he was a part of my life, but it's all good like this. I can look around and see people who I wish my dad was like all I want, but he'll never come close to being the father that you are for me. I guess I just want to thank you lord for giving me life and for loving me all of the time. I think I am done here now lord, so until next time, adios.

Giving Time to God

Lord I realize that I should dedicate more time to you, even if it isn't that much. So I have decided that I will keep a "journal on the john." At least this way I can glorify you with EVERYTHING that i do, no matter how crappy it is. Pun intended.